Why Tom...

My Marriage with Daisy isn't considered to be the pitch perfect marriage. I have been caught in my affair by my wife, but she still does not know that my second relationship is with Myrtle. Maybe it has to do with my pride, maybe it is because I deserve more than what I have already, maybe it is because I can do what I want because of the money that I have accumulated over the years and the money that has come from my family. Daisy simply isn't enough to keep me content and consistently keep some sort of excitement in my life. That is what Myrtle has brought into my life. My affair with Myrtle is an added excitement to my life, and keeps my weeks eventful, continuing to try and hide who this woman is and hide to most of the world that I am having this affair. Because Daisy lacks to bring all of these emotions into my life, I sometime result in slight acts of frustration. I have hit Myrtle in occasion, and similar to Myrtle I have hit Daisy. I resent the fact that I have hit Daisy, and it something hidden from the world that will not be known. I feel though at times that I am inclined to act with force because I still need to maintain a sense of power within my relationships. I will admit, there is slightly an ego within me that drives me to maintain power, no matter the action it takes, as long as the public does not view and bring more problems to my life.

Why Tom...

After the accident in the valley of ashes, I have made the decision to take Daisy and myself out westward. It wouldn't make much sense of us to stay in the area considering the heat that is rising. This provides the perfect opportunity for us to leave what has happened in the past month or so in East Egg. There is little reasoning as to why I would want to stay anyways. Myrtle was killed in the hit in run that the community believes was Gatsby. Little do they know it was Daisy, and if Daisy were to be found guilty that would only spark many more problems. Another reason is the presence of Gatsby. I nearly lost Daisy to Gatsby, so why would I want to remain in the same vicinity of him? Only a fool would want to remain in the vicinity of a man that is attempting to steal (and nearly does steal) my wife from me. A move westward would give me a new opportunity within my marriage. I could in fact find another mistress, but I believe that I now have to put extra effort into my marriage. My actions to Daisy and the lies of my second relationship have been a cause for the downfall of my marriage to this point. From an economic standpoint I know that my current location in East Egg is a prime location of opportunity and a lot of money circulates through this area. Nothing says that I can't still maintain if not profit in a new location.

Tom's thoughts

Daisy's cousin is arriving today from his house over in West Egg, but I personally have no care for him coming to my house. The west egg men are nothing but new money young men that have nothing established. This wasn't the case for Daisy's cousin Nick, who not only doesn't have new money, but in fact doesn't have a surplus of money at all. When he mentioned what bond company he is working for, he only stated that I will know of the company soon because of the success that he will bring forth for it. His manners were okay, but he lacks the elegance that comes with living in this area. I gave him a hard time, and plan to continue doing so for as long as he sticks around with us. From our meeting today, I wasn't impressed with him. The only reason I allow these meetings is the fact that he is family of Daisy. Nick is a smaller man, not nearly as strong as I. Not only is he a smaller man, he also isn't the most intelligent. He had no clue my references to the various novels that I read. His presence was in a way awkward, he didn't belong in my household. This is something i suppose he will have to get used to if he plans to continue meeting with Daisy since his recent move to West Egg. All I can say is that it doesn't matter to me if he continues to visit or disappears from the area and I were to never see him again.

Tom's Feelings

Daisy and I decided to attend one of Gatsby's parties tonight. This will be the first time that both of us have ever attended one of these famous parties. As we walked in, I was flooded with emotion. I saw so many faces with happiness flooded all upon them, but I did not feel any of that joy. In fact, I wasn't amused by this party at all. We converted with Gatsby for a bit, and then he left to attend to his party as I would expect. He obviously is slightly showing his emotions for Daisy, and that begins to fill me with anger. Daisy is my wife. Yes maybe I am not the best husband to her at some points, but she loves me, and I love her. What continued to bother me is the people I see attending this party. How many of them know who's party they're attending. When I say this I mean who of these people know who the real Gatsby is. How many of people know how he got his money, how many of these people know what his past is, and if he actually has as much honor as these people think he has. His honor is only based upon the amount of money he has, which he tries very hard to show. Anger fills my heart towards Gatsby, and disappointment fills my heart for those who are here who know nothing of Gatsby but his parties. Daisy slipped off with Gatsby and that gave me a feeling of doubt. Does my Daisy actually have serious feelings for Gatsby? Do I actually have to worry what she is up to when she disappears with him? Do I have to be concerned for the amount of times Daisy has gone off for the day for the fact that she might be with Gatsby?

Toms feelings

I just uncovered that Gatsby was involved in a hit and run scene that killed my mistress Myrtle. Daisy was in the car with him, and she could just as well be long gone, maybe even gone forever. O yet to understand the relationship between Daisy and Gatsby, but after today, I'm very concerned. Everyone is hot with their emotions. Whenever someones emotions tip over the edge, they either explode into fury or burst into tears. I am in the middle of these emotions where I could explode, or cry. But men don't cry and I will continue to keep my poise. Gatsby exploded with anger during our meeting up in New York, and look how that turned out, driving home in a ball of fury, killing my Myrtle, and running off as if he could care less. I swear to God I hate that Gatsby. He is nothing but a huge lie. He has no honor behind his wealth, and his wealth is only made from a corrupted inside business with the mayor. All I can hope is that when I return home, I will return home to my Daisy. I no longer have my Myrtle, and i'm on the brink of losing my wife, so I pray she will be home when I come home. I know she will be home when I arrive. I will continue to keep my poise. I will continue to act like a gentleman. Im going to break if my wife isn't home...

Tom's thoughts

On the way home from New York City, we heard the news of a hit and run that took place in the valley of ashes. I heard of the yellow car and I immediately knew this would bring big change to the future. When I arrived home I had a talk with Daisy. It turns out she was driving the car, and Gatsby is innocent. Before this mess is addressed, I think it would be best if we left East Egg and travel out West. This is perfect because I no longer have a connection to Myrtle, and Gatsby will be left framed as the hit and run killer. This gives us the opportunity to escape the pressing issues of the moment. I will no longer have to worry about losing my wife to Gatsby, as she was just on the brink of leaving. I will no longer have to travel to visit Myrtle, which will put me in a better state for my own marriage. Anywhere westward will be better. Anywhere away from the heat of this scene will be a better option than remaining here in East Egg with all the troubles of my past that are coming to the front stage. I think this will be the better move for Daisy as well. Im tired of living in the brink of losing her to this fake man Gatsby. His presence has been the cause for all of the problems that have occurred the past month.